Love, heart and soul….
When the rain started to pour yesterday, it was pretty sudden.
Before we knew it, raindrops started to shower as the golden sun rays continued to shine, resulting in a very faint colourful rainbow hovering across the train tracks.
The wind was strong as the droplets danced like snow flakes in the air. And the withered sunflowers were waving their heads at me in the corridor.
Looking at the crumpled petals, they have lost the beauty which I have witnessed when I first brought them home, and I could see that they were struggling to survive.
I felt a pinch of pain in my heart, and a moment of lost.
Why have they withered so fast? I thought to myself.
Since Friday, I have noticed their terrible plight and I moved them to a place where there might be more sunlight, hoping that this will revive them from what they were.
It was an act of guilt, for I blamed myself not taking good care of them.
Was it because I do not know them well, as I watered them daily before I headed to work, and resulted in too much water that drowned them?
Or was it because I have not put my heart and soul into taking care of them, just like I have once forgotten how to love this world?
Perhaps, love is what they need, just like our children need our love to grow them up.
It was nightfall again but the night was still young.
I sat beside my window after work, typing on the small little keyboard, as the wind howled beside my ear.
The wind was cool, or maybe cold for a person who lives in summer throughout the 4 seasons. I could feel the coldness piercing through my skin, sending shivers down my spine occasionally.
But I just love the feeling, for I love how the wind can blow my thoughts away, let them fly, and turn them into words that speak my heart.
However, the thought of the withered sunflowers sank my mood, as I recalled how beautiful they were when I first saw them.
But that’s life.
The moon will change her shape every night;
And the weather will change according to the seasons.
Beauty never last. In fact, nothing in this world last, just like the rainbow that I saw during the sunny rain yesterday.
Many a times, it seems to be such a simple task, but to accomplish it with results that we want, it takes one’s heart and soul to make it happen.
For the past weeks, I have been editing my photographs, hoping that I can turn them into beautiful pictures and earn as many “likes” as I can.
My heart was filled with lust for fame and acceptance.
Hence, I spent hours and hours editing the pictures, bringing the pictures to life, just for the sake of getting the recognition that I wanted.
I wonder if I have used the time and showered the sunflowers with as much love, would they wither in such a short period of time?
I have always believed that in our daily routines, we need heart and soul to be a better person, be it photography, work, bringing up our children or even caring for the flowers.
The withered flowers have triggered my thoughts about life and how short it can be.
Perhaps, I have never treated them as something that belong to my life, that they were just passers by and if they are gone, there won’t be any regret.
In life, we only live once, unlike photograph editing, where we can edit and re-edit many times as long as we are not satisfied.
The flowers have withered and soon they will be gone. It will be different even if I bring another pot home.
I have let them down because I have simply not fulfilled my responsibility of taking care of them.
It’s just like when we bring our children to this world, we have the responsibility of making sure that they grow up as a good person.
It’s only when they are brought up in the place where there is love, heart and soul can they really grow up strong and happy.
If given a second chance, I would spend more time understanding how to grow a plant, in particular sunflower, and try my best to love and care for them. Even if the outcome remains the same, at least I know that I have put in my heart and soul, just like how I have put my heart and soul into photography, my work and of course, my home.
PS:Valentine’s Day has just passed, and may I wish all lovers will end up where they want to be, and use their hearts and souls to build their home that they wish for.