(English version below)
For whatever reason, I love this picture of mine the moment I saw it.
It was a Sunday, the last day of our Bangkok trip in Thailand.
As we were waiting in the hotel lobby for the driver to pick us to the airport, I had a sudden urge to take a picture of myself so that I can send it to my friends.
I looked for the right spot, made the necessary adjustments and then requested Charlene to snap the camera, never to realise that I had an unexpected moment.
When I started to edit this picture, I couldn’t help it but felt satisfied and loved this picture as I noticed something different about me but did not know where and what.
Was it the short crew cut that I have wanted for a long time that made me looked neat and tidy? Or was it the the clean look after the morning shave? Or was it the holidays that has relaxed my mind?
I looked at myself closely, examined every feature and noticed the smile that was so natural and amiable. I love it so much that I decided to use this as my profile picture for all my social networks and even as my wallpaper on my iPhone.
Then I sent this photo to a couple of my friends and one of them told me this: “Brother, you looked peaceful…”
“Ah!” I thought to myself, “Yes, that’s it! Peaceful!”
Suddenly I felt tears rushing to my eyes, for I now understood why I love this photo so much. It has been a long time since I had seen such a peaceful and carefree smile on my face! My usual unhappiness and tiredness displayed on my face were gone.
For the past weeks, I have been doing a lot of readings on Buddhism, meditation and self improvement. And ever since I have decided to be “selfish” and live for myself, I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching, be it meditation or just deep thoughts.
And as I began to work on my Project L.O.V.E, I begin to let go of many things, including all my disappointments and worries.
As I looked at my own photo and observed the innerpeace written on my smile, I know that I am moving in the right direction which I call the path of light……