自我反映(二十二)——谦卑 / Self-Reflection (22) — Modesty

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我的单位的墙上贴着一张照片。

那是一滴雨露静静地躺在一片长长绿叶上的照片,而照片的下边,我为它附上了两个字:谦卑。

在中文字典里,“卑”这个含有负面意义,是“底下”的意思。然而,当把它和“谦”放在一块儿的时候,并不是要我们觉得自己低于他人,而是要提醒自己不要自大,但也不要贬低自己。

绿叶与雨露原本是毫不相干的两个物体,可是在机缘巧合的情况下碰撞在一起,而后又在机缘巧合下,与我邂逅。于是,便有了这一张照片的出现。

选择了这张照片是因为我感觉雨露不会因为自己的清澈而感到自满,只是静静地躺在叶子上,反而衬托出叶子的翠绿。而叶子也不是因为雨露的降落而卑躬屈膝,只是微微的颔首,让雨露怡然自得地静躺。

我想以这张照片提醒自己要像那片绿叶以及那滴雨露般,谦卑地展现自我,不受任何外境的影响而改变自己。

以前的我,看见高层管理的领导,便会尽量退避三舍,原因之一是觉得自己和他们相差了十万八千里,害怕当他们对我问话却又没有答案时,会留下不好的印象。

可是今天的我,希望能够以一颗谦卑的心,尽量把众生看成平等的,因为我终于明白,我并不逊于任何人,而我的成功与否,或是快乐与否,都不是别人给予的。

我,就只是我。

不论是高层管理,还是职位比我低的员工,对我来说,都是平等的;

不论是政坛里的风云人物,还是市井小民,也是平等的;

不论是从事什么职业,是公司领导,是白领上班一族,是街上卖艺,甚或是提供性服务的女子,在我眼里,也都是平等的。

记得曾读过那么一段教导:

有人抓了一个妓女到耶稣面前,说这个女人是罪人,大家要按例用石头砸死她,并征询耶稣的意见。耶稣只是淡淡地说:“你们当中有哪个人没有犯过罪的,就可以丢石头打她。”结果当然是没有人能做得到。

当我看着每一个人时,我会尝试想象自己并不比他聪明能干,但也不会比他更笨或无能。我愿意以谦卑的心态去走完我的余生,让自己不胜于他人,也不输于他人,坚守自己的原则,做最真的自己,尊重自己,善待自己,爱自己,让自己活得更加自由自在……

11.02.2017

文/林顺源


On the wall of my cubicle, there is a picture which I have taken last month. It is a picture of a raindrop on the body of a leaf.

And at the bottom of the picture, I added 2 Chinese words: 谦卑 (qian bei).

In Chinese, “卑”(bei) is a negative word which means “lowly”, “insignificant”, or “low in rank”. But when it is being placed together with the word “谦”, it’s meaning has changed to being mindful not to be arrogant but yet not to belittle ourselves.

I have used this picture to remind myself to be modest and humble, and just be myself, without being affected by the external environment.

I used to avoid top management leaders, fearing that they would talk to me and ask me questions that I couldn’t answer. Part of the reason was the fear of leaving a bad impression.

But as I see myself transforming, I try my best to see things and people in equality, for I have realised that I am not as bad / lousy as I thought, and my success or happiness lies upon myself, not the others.

I am just me.

Regardless whether it’s the higher management or colleagues who are lower rank than me, we are all equals;

Regardless whether it’s the political leaders or commoners along the street, they are all equals too;

And regardless the occupation that we hold, whether is it the CEO or a ordinary staff, the street performers or even the prostitutes, we are still equal.

I remembered reading this short story:

A prostitue was brought in front of Jesus. The people sought Jesus’ opinions as they claimed that the woman was full of sins for her role. They wanted to put the woman to death by throwing stones at her. Without lifting his head, Jesus said:”If anyone of you here feel that you have never committed any sin, you are free to throw the stone at her.” Nobody did anything.

As I look at every one that crosses my path now, I will imagine myself not being better than him/her. However, I will also imagine myself being not worst off. We each have our own strengths and weaknesses and I prefer to live the rest of life with modesty, and stick to my own principles.

I will just be myself, respect and be nice to myself. I will love myself and be a free man in this world…

11.02.2017

Francis Lim

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