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似乎忘了 / I seem to have forgotten

无意被一场极度不愉快的口角敲醒,猛然警觉自己似乎忘了如何去活在当下,每一时每一刻,不是想着未来,就是念着过去。

在匆匆忙忙的生活规律下,每天拖着疲惫的身躯,追着秒针的步伐不停地奔波,把许多该做的事都搁下了,譬如静坐、诵经、阅读、摄影以及写作。

忙碌,成为了懈怠的最好借口;而荒芜的心,却长满了野草,脑子里边更是如不曾清理的房子,堆积了许多不知所谓的琐碎。

本该懂得如何去包容所有的众生,包括喜欢与不喜欢的人,渐渐走向众生的平等,却发现最近又开始埋怨一切;

本应当学会以慈悲心去看待众生,了知众生都有自己的痛苦与烦恼,渐渐接受世间的不完美,却发现自己心里的不平衡越来越显著;

偶尔提起书本,还未翻到两页,就感觉力不从心,文字是映入了眼帘,可却没读懂什么。

回想那段不断勤奋的日子,所作所为无不都是为了成为一个更好的自己,寻找更广阔的天空。

静坐是为了清除日夜不良的念头,诵经是为了祝福众生,阅读是为了不停精进,摄影与写作是为了忙里偷闲。

可是当这些都被搁下时,一切都回到了起点。望着一片精致的菩提叶书签,隐藏着一份无形的祝福与爱,我愧对把这份礼物送给我的晓晓。

人生,不进则退,所以说,想要得到什么,就得付出努力与代价,我想我该好好反省了……

15.08.2018

林顺源

It was like a wake up call, the unpleasant and unfriendly argument led me to realise that I seem to have forgotten about mindfulness and living in the now and the here. For every moment, I have been thinking either of the past or the future.

As the daily life become more and more hectic, I dragged myself and chased after the second hand. And in so doing, I neglected my meditation, chanting, reading, photography and writing.

“Busyness” became the best excuse for my laziness and the neglected heart and soul began to be filled with things that shouldn’t even be there.

I should have known how to accept this world, including people whom I like and dislike and treat everyone as equal. But then I have begun to grumble many things;

I should have learned to be compassionate towards all sentient beings in this world, understanding that each and every one of us have our own pains and fears in life. But then again, I began to feel an imbalance within my heart;

As I picked up a book and started reading, it was barely two pages and I couldn’t get anything into my mind, even though the words fell into my eyes.

Recalling the days when I was working hard, I practised towards making a better me. I meditated to clear my mind of all filthy thoughts, I chanted for the well being of all sentient beings, I read to improve myself constantly and photography and writing were means for me to relax my mind.

But when these were neglected, I find myself back to where I have started.

Looking at the beautiful bookmark in the shape of a Bodhi leaf, something that contains blessings and love, I feel guilty towards Hilary who has given me this special gift.

In life, we fall back to where we were or even worst if we don’t consistently move forward and this comes with hard work. And as it is widely acknowledge that in order to get something, we need to work for it and pay a price.

I guess it’s time for my to do more self reflection…

15.08.2018

Francis Lim

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2 replies »

  1. 紅塵內的修練很難… 所以〈無量壽經〉上說,在此娑婆世界持戒修行一日一夜,勝過在其他世界為善百歲。 正因為在娑婆太難修了,釋迦牟尼佛才勸我們求生淨土。
    dear Francis, 為眾生祝福,別忘了自己也是眾生之~
    休息一下!

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