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About me……

I am always a late comer, though I’m most of the time early.

Sounds contradicting, isn’t it?

I hold the belief that one should be disciplined enough to be early in our daily routines – going to work, attending meetings and trainings, or even meeting up with friends. This is, to me, a display of respect for what we are doing and the people around us.

But I’m always late in joining the trends. When Facebook sprung up years ago, I didn’t even know its existence, despite the fact that my job is related to technology. When people started blogging, I’m still very much living in my own world, wondering what good can blogging brings to me.

And for years, I would spend countless days and nights doing nothing except work, until one day, I started to write my own diary in Chinese, my favourite language. Then I found something really close to my heart.

Since then, I’ve been penning my thoughts for almost coming to 5 years.

It has never occurred to me that photography would also become something that I like along the way and even hope to pursue further. After all, I am not a creative person who can really capture stunning shots.

But I find peace in my writings and when taking pictures. I stayed late at nights sometimes, just to let my feelings dance with the cooling breeze. My thoughts will wander all around the place, through the past, to the future, and words just flow through my heart.

With my new hobby, I find myself roaming around a place, practicing the art of photography, just like I let my thoughts roam, and start to pen my feelings down, hence I have given this blog the name of “Let the thoughts fly”.

Yes, I love this phrase, let my thoughts fly.

I don’t consider myself as a photographer.

It was by chance that I was hooked (or am hooked) to photography. It was during one of the lowest period of my life when I heard from my manager Kok Keong that Nikon has released a new mirrorless camera Nikon 1.

At that point in time I was still not sure what is the difference between a point and shoot compact digital camer and a DSLR, let alone a mirrorless camera.

Call it retail therapy some may, I just wanted to buy something new to play with in order to occupy my troubled mind. And so I bought.

It turned out to be just another point and shoot camera for me, although there was settings for me to play around with the aperture and shutter.

When I brought the whole family to Malaysia Desaru Lotus Resort for a short getaway in 2012, I brought the camera along and captured moments of the holiday.

It was one of the pictures that really inspired me to want to learn more about photography.

I can still recall that it was drizzling that evening when we had our dinner at the restaurant by the beach in Desaru.

As usual, the kids finished their dinner faster than anybody else and were playing around the restaurant. I took out my Nikon 1 and started shooting aimlessly away.

The lights, the ambience and the mood was just nice as the lamps shone on droplets of rain floating in the air, the breeze was cooling, and my daughter Charlene was dancing in the restaurant with her shawl.

I thought it will be great to capture some moments for us to recollect in the years to come.

And I captured this photograph that really triggered my love for photography.

Charlene in Desaru

Charlene in Desaru

It may not be well taken but it is (until today) a picture that I like very much. I love the way how the shawl flew in the air; I love the droplets whirling and whizzing under the ambient light, I love the serenity of the place, quiet and cooling.

I came back from Desaru and decided to get a DSLR and finally settled on the current Nikon D5300, and began to learn the art of photography, the shutter, the aperture, ISO, exposure, the rule of thirds, the leading lines and all the composition rules.

I watched videos on YouTube learning how to process images, how to compose my pictures and yet I have failed in many ways.

It is hard to be what one wants to be when he or she lacks what it takes to be there. And that is exactly the problem that I’m facing. I’ve always acknowledged that I am no creator, the lack of creativity become one of my road block to take captivating pictures. More often than not, I found the pictures that I took turn out to be dull and boring.

But then one day I was thinking “what the heck!”, so what if my images are not capturing the viewers’ eyes? I began to ponder, am I capturing those images to please the viewers or myself? Am I supposed to be sharing what I see or showing them what they want to see?

The answer is pretty obvious, it’s both!

And thus here I am today, starting a new blog to post my thoughts and pictures online, either as a form of sharing with those who wish to read and see, or just a place for my thoughts to really fly, hoping that one day I can blend these two hobbies into one, where every picture tells a story and my thoughts will be elaborated through the beautiful words that touch the heart of the reader….

24.10.2015

Francis Lim

自序

我是一个感性的人,也是一个喜欢用文字抒发心情的人,更是一个拥有一份虚荣心的人,长年累月都在希望自己能成为一个作家,只是多年以来都没有真正的去追逐我的梦想,以至于时至今日,仍是一个徘徊在好与不好之间的写手。

开始喜欢中文是在中一、二的时候吧?那段时期,我沉迷于金庸的武侠小说,不论何时何地,只要一书在手便废寝忘食,只想尽快把一部小说看完为止。

从此对于那些方块文字便情有独钟。

犹记得有一段时期,我喜欢收集书签,尤其是一些精致美丽,附带三两行中文字幕的书签。

每一次经过书店或是文具店,我都会情不自禁的踏进去,笔直来到吊挂书签的地方,然后慢慢的翻找。总是痴痴地在那儿挑了好一会儿,细细咀嚼字里行间的含义,才心满意足的捧着较喜欢的几张书签回家收藏。

虽然喜欢印在书签上的图画,但真正的醉翁之意并不在那些山明水秀,或是富有浪漫色彩的图片,而是那短短浅浅却满含情感的片言只语,总能在其中找到一丝丝的共鸣,就像是我心底里隐秘处的一声声呼唤。

后来,我不再买书签了,却开始将心里的情绪落成稚嫩的文字。多年以来,总是喜欢在纸上随意涂鸦,一笔一划地把自己当时的心情化作一段段不成篇章的方块文字,把它们换做一首首见不得人的歌词。

只是出来社会工作,成家立室后,这支无形的笔也就无意中被遗落在柴米油盐酱茶醋里,隔了好久,都不曾再提笔,甚至连自己最深的喜好都给忘记。

没想到当我步入中年的时候,无意陷入人生的低谷,却让文字成为了我的良伴。许多个孤单的夜晚,凭栏倚窗,独自把心放飞在空空荡荡的穹苍,任其化作无数个飞舞的心语。

真正起始写心情散文是在四年前的某个夜晚,百无聊赖,在网络随意浏览来到了中国网络散文的家园,认识了一些文友,从此为我开辟了另一个天空。后来更在在机缘巧合下,成了墨韵飘香网络文学站的编辑与站长,让我接触到更多不同体裁的作品,边学边写。

如今,我已退出中国文学网站,追求自己心中的抱负。

自从弃车搭公车之后,每一天上班的时刻,我都会趁那仅有的二十分钟打开平板iPad,不是阅读新闻,就是翻阅文章,偶尔当环境与心境允许的话,我便会敲击键盘,把心中纷乱的思绪一一地记录下来。

尽管只是短短的二十分钟,尽管我无法把一篇文章完完整整的写好,但每一点滴的思绪,都可能为我下一篇文章垫下铿锵的心语。

其实,我不懂文学,看的书也不多,更没有上过什么文学课。除了少年时读过的武侠小说,以及年轻时候翻阅过的励志书籍之外,其余书刊都不曾吸引过我,因此,我的文字功底也可见一般。然而,近年来都在不停的阅读散文,从而获得更多写作的技巧。

从没想过要追求文学,只是对于文字的执著,让我走上了写作的道路,尽管依旧是处在好坏之间,但我知道,我的某些作品也曾被某些人肯定,虽然只是寥寥数篇,我心足矣。

真的希望有一天,我能够出版一本属于自己的散文集,与爱文字的读者共同分享我的心声……

14.01.2015

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16 replies »

  1. 嗨,你好!谢谢你的支持,也很开心我的博客能够让你喜欢。我通常都是先写中文,然后再尝试写英文。但是中文实在太美丽太深奥,有时无法翻译,我也就不勉强自己。我不是用翻译软件。谢谢你的鼓励,更希望能够给你带来更多好文。

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